我会勇敢地走下去

我总是在遇到困难的时候就拼命逃避，

遇到批评的时候就拼命安慰自己，

遇到别人的闲言闲语就默默哭泣，

遇到别人一大堆意见就措手不及，

我总是这样，

到后来自己心里想的是什么也被遗忘了，

可能我的看法原则上不一定是对的，

但我必须坚信，我会对的。

我真的可以对的。

所以，这次我选择勇敢地努力走下去！

恢复正常！

OMG 一切终于恢复正常啦！

竟然在我快回家了才恢复正常

@#$%^&*(

感动！~~

等会儿吃饭回来将update部落格！

把这两个月发生の事写下来~~~woohoo~

I AM BACK!!!!!!!!!!!!muahahahhahahahahahahahahha

做了什么

日子一天一天过，

看着自己一天一天变老， 

人家18岁做了什么，

而我18岁做了什么？

我应该也是时候做些什么了吧！

做些对社会有贡献，对世界有帮助的事！ 

好，决定就从把宏伟砍死开始吧。。。 

然后分尸煮给在我部落格支持的朋友们吃，谢谢你们的支持！多多留言。。。

Real Long tagged by lehe

Has been my N times answering tagged questions..

when people get bored and got nothing to do in the middle of the night,

this is what they do = =

Tagged by Lehe 

1.My Name : xiying 
2.My birthday : 1212 1990 
3.Who tagged you : 3rd time saying,its lehe 
4.Name 5 best friends : Lots of them,love em all! 
5.What do you wished for birthday :  improvement in music and get what i want
6.Happy things that happened recently : Foreign students' Concert over here,it was so HIGH!!!
7.Most stressed about recently : appearance =[ 
8.What is your dream about future : Being rich by myself,enjoy life with jimuis,family and dolly..great achievement in playing guzheng,and able to play harp,then i'll be satisfied =] 
9.Do you have someone you like : i dont think so? 
10.Will you visit your ex-teacher in a classmate gathering : ya 
11.Most happy to hang out with : Jimuis..! 
12.If two of your friends are having conflicts : doing everything by nothing 
13.Where is preferably the place to go with your lover : our home 
14.What to do in Christmas : Get high with buddies! 
15.Who do you want to celebrate Christmas with : Friends or Family.. 
16.Bad habit on waking up early in the morning : I am sleeping real dead recently 
17.How many siblings do you have : a big bro 
18.Favourite song(Female) : First of may and etc etc etc by Olivia 
19.Favourite songs(Male) : I'm yours 
20.Favourite Colour : baby blue and pink,apple green,black,white and red 
21.Flush before using the toilets? : depends 
22.Love me not? :  
23.Affectionate to guys or girls : Both
24.What do you want to shout out loudly : Give me talent,appearance and MONEY!
25.Do you dare to go toilets alone in the middle of the night? : Ya
26.Will you take off your undies in while in the WC : abo ler? 
27.Who’s the bastard : different ppl in different time 
28.What’s the current affection : a lil bit of home sick and a lil bit of boredom in life 
29.Ugly when asleep: should be ..haha 
30.Whats the time now : 3am 
31.Do you hate the person who tagged you : I'll kill him if killing ppl is legal HAHA 
I cancelled question 32,its asking rubbish TEEHEE 
33.Weather today : Hot summer.
34.Are you pregnant : Yes,with fats and shits inside = =
35.What will you do if you win a lottery : donate part of them,spend some and save the rest 
36.An activity that must be done while in the Uni -life : concerto with CO and having solo concert   

【People Tagged】*Do it or die.
01-Fern 
02-xian
03-gail 
04-xinrui 
05-jiawen 
06-weihui
07-suat yee
08-beng yew 
09-jagung
10- rohnie

01-【Does no.4 know no.6?】: of course 
02-【No.10 is a male or?】：Male  
03-【The hobby of no.8】：Play doublebass and asking ppl out for coffee 
04-【Does no. 1 have any siblings】: a bro and a sis 
05-【The surname of of no.7】：Tay
06-【Does no.10 have a lot of friends?】: i think so 
07-【Anyone tackling no.4?】: kind of,but all annoymous 
08-【If no.2 is being introduced?】：a hairy bear 
09-【The favourite colour of no.6】: Black or blue?
10-【Where is no.5 studying currently?】: CLPHS
11-【How do you know no.10?】: Chinese orchestra
12-【Whats the difference between the birth month of no.1 and you?】: 3 months 
13-【Ever hang out with no.9?】: hanging out with her day after tmr!yay~ 
14-【Do you like to chat with no.2?】: yea we talked bout everything 
15-【Like to be with no.3?】: ya sure 
16-【How do you think about no.7?】：Super cute and sweet.love her 
17-【How do you think about no.9?】: Blur but kinda clever 
18-【Do you love no.5? 】：of caz,she is my jimui ler! 

1.Who tagged you with this questionnaire? : WTF 
2.How long have you known him/her : hmm..5 years 
3.Do you think that he/she is important to you? : ya,kind of... 
4.Your relationship with him/her : sometimes very fren,sometimes like stranger 
5.Whats his/hers hobby? : hmm..play erhu hanging out with frens taking photos shopping sleeping eating and online 
6.What do you think about his/her personality? :  like this lo
7.His/her points of importance in your heart : no idea 

＊1st thing before sleep : switch off pc 
＊1st thing after awaking from sleep : bath 
＊Your idol : jason mraz,marie digby fish leong 
＊Favourite season : Spring n autumn 
＊Worked part-time before? : Ya 
＊Times worked : 1
＊Country that wanted to go the most : Japan 
＊Personality hated : fake and mean 
＊Are you a crybaby? : kinda,would cry for anything 
＊You laugh alot? : Yea as usual..but not recently 
＊Do you like to go out alone? : yupz..enjoy very much 
＊What time will you wake up if it's a holiday? : no exact answer 
＊Today’s weather（Sunny Rainy Cloudy）: Sunny
＊Choose between Friends and Lover : Friends
＊Choose between Chances and Fates : Chances
＊Are you narcissist? : kind of 
＊Is this questionnaire long? : YES
＊How to make yourself feel better every time? : find a way to make it better 
＊Favourite food : japanese food 
＊Do you like ice? : Yes.
＊Are you full of happiness? : always but not now 
＊Who are the friends that you care the most? : frens who need cares 
＊What's the most important item in your bed room? : color tone,hygiene,bed n temperature 
＊Most consistent dream at sleep :  huh i seldom dream
＊Will you forgive a guy that is mentally disobedient? : no,its juz wasting my time 
＊Whats the meaning of life? : Life is tough but fun,so enjoy it as much as u could! 
＊Do you know?（See if you can answer this! ）: sure 
＊When do you hate me? : when u talk like u never cares ppl's feeling haha but nvm,u juz being u..and i tot i might did the same thing to u 
＊Like the day you were born or been into the society?: ya 
＊Like Taoism or Confucianism? : whatever 
＊Favourite cake? : cheese cake ,sponge cake  
＊Can we stop this game now? : better 
＊Do you like sardines?: no 
＊Who knows you the best? : bro and fern
＊IQ higher or EQ? : EQ
＊Computer or Mobile Phone : Computer
＊Prefer to sleep or play? : Sleep 
＊Friendster or Facebook? : Facebook.
＊Whats your wish right now? :  improvement in guzheng,hug my dogs,dinner with family
＊Tired? : a lil bit 
＊Favourite drinks : pudding milk tea

终于！

哎哟
终于可以写了？！！！！！ 

可是好像上不了照片。。

6月10日，
宝贝Yuki的生日！！

祝她生日快乐～～～

再多1个月15天，
我就可以在家陪他们啦～～

好期待！
刚刚从康仁的打击乐排练回来，

再多3天，就是所谓的留学生音乐会啦， 

不过大家都没什么兴奋的感觉。。呵呵 

还是希望音乐会顺利吧～ 

再多8天，
就是阿贤和玉米的生日啦！ 

突然很怀念以前他们的生日会， 

我们总是很埋怨但也很甘愿地帮他们筹备啦， 

当了佣人就算了，还要花些银两买2人份的礼物。。真是的～ 

然后再多9天，
我在北京就多个伴啦！～ 

然后。。15天后，
所谓的玩伴就离开北京了～ 

之后就是7月天了～
天啊，好快喔！ 

也不是说在这里不开心，
一直以来都很开心的啊，

只是这学期我看起来心事重重，
我也不知道为什么， 

反正有种预感觉得心事重重的日子就快过去了！ 

最近我一直思考，一直想。。一直想。。 

我在学习，

学着有更多的耐性， 

学着自己做决定 

学着把一切看开 

学着不要那么窝囊 

学着拿别人的教训警惕自己 

学着忍耐，学着体谅 

目前都挺好的，

看了很多，学了更多。。

哎，残酷的世界里，
最好的选择就是安静地躲在角落观察，然后做好自己的事情吧

人类啊，还是少给自己惹麻烦。。阿弥陀佛～～～

Bloggin error in msn space

Such a disaster to me,

because..i tried to blog on msn space for thousand times already,

but i still couldnt publish even a tiny tiny peanut up there!

no,not even a comment! 

so,not that i lansi dunwan to continue blogging or leave u guys some comments there ah,

but i also dunno why like this mah *shakes head* *sigh*

so ohbengyew,stop complaining d har i tel u,

if not i wil korek ur mouth and let fern eat that!hohohohoho

and surprisingly,blogspot still working so well thats why u see me posted lots of rubbish here,

I actually decided to move my blogs here,

but then,

i hesitated,

i had so much chit-chatting and memories with my besties over there..

omg i juz simply lovin msn space and i dont know why

but I JUST CANT PUBLISH THINGS THERE!

yoi..!why forbidden me from blogging!huh huh huh

i have to figure out why the hack i am getting publishing error

and i am so pissed that i found china blocked msn websites today!!!

dunno how long ago,they blocked all taiwan websites,

one month ago,they blocked youtube..

2 weeks ago,they blocked blogspot..

now msn space pula.. 

apa lah ini,

WTF are they trying to do?!

block la block la,

block until u syok la..block yahoo la u idiot,abo block google la,

hng,I AM NOT AFRAID because i got freegate!!!!

hehehhehehehe

nowadays ah,IT world memang canggih lo..

china block this block that ah,

tak apa,relax..someone created a software called freegate,

memang powerful,

u block apa..freegate unblock semua..

mien kia lah!!!!

but i still cannot publish post in msn space!!!

someone pls tell me the reason!!!

Tagged by peiqi

Ok,tagging games ...again..

msn space cant publish new post and i duno why,

n i saw Peiqi tagged me in her blog,

since i couldnt sleep at all,and i really feel like blogging but cant think of any topics for blogspot,

so i decided to answer these questions,

which i think i already answered them like thousand times before d..haha..

RULES:

- Tell 100 Truths
- Tag 15 people after
- They do the same back to you

PERSONAL PARTICULARS:
1. What's your name →xiying
2. Nicknames → ah girl
3. Relationship Status → Single
4. Zodiac sign → saggitarius
5. Male or female or transgendered → Female
6. Elementary → Han chiang primary
7. Secondary School → PCGHS
8. High school →PCGHS
10. Hair color → kinda brown  and a lil bit goldish to me
11. Long or short →  emm,short..but on it's way to be a long one.lolx
16. Height → 164
17. Do you have a crush on someone? → now?NO..haha
18: What do you like about yourself? →  err..having a lovely family i guess
19. Piercings → Yup
20. Tattoos → hope to get one sometimes
21. Righty or lefty → righty

LAST:
22. Last beverage → plain water
23. Last phone call → lishan
24. Last text message → to  yangjin
25. Last song you listened to → the nutcracker suite by Tchaikovsky
26. Last time you cried → this afternoon..emm,not really cried,juz some tears..haha,but no big deal,juz feeling abit depressed 

SIX HAVE YOU EVER:
27. Dated someone twice → ya
28. Been cheated on? → err no impression ler
29. Cheated someone else? → not counted as cheated lar..i juz lied to him,for his own good sometimes lol
30. Lost someone special? → Grandma?
31. Been depressed? → yes
32. Been drunk and threw up? → Just drunk.

LIST FOUR FAVORITE COLORS: Black n white,apple green,light pink light blue

HAVE YOU:
34. Made new friends → Yup
35. Fallen out of love → nop.
36. Laughed until you cried → it happens  real often
37. Met someone who changed you → erm..never notice yet
38. Found out who your true friends were → Yea
39. Found out someone was talking about you → No ler..would be my pleasure if they did haha
40. Kissed anyone on your friend's list → No impression also...
41. How many people on your friend's list do you know in real life → i wont let unknown human being appear in my friend list lo..i called them seafoods.
42. How many kids do you want to have → 2 is maximum
43. Do you have any pets → ya..many of em
44. Do you want to change your name → i'm satisfied with my name lar..though its kinda common..but a common name is always a best name
45. What did you do for your last birthday → we had BBQ party and played games
46. What time did you wake up today → 930am                                                                                 47. What were you doing at midnight last night → surfing the net and watching mvs                   48. Name some things you CANNOT wait for → Back to home.Back to penang.Hug my dogs.Having breakfast with parents.and  first semester on september
49. Last time you saw your father → 6th may
50. One thing you wish you could change about your life → my bodyshape
51. What are you listening to right now → sounds by air conditioner
52. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom → No..
53. What's getting on your nerves right now? → nothing                                                                   54. Most visited webpage :Facebook

FIRSTS :
55. First surgery → choi...
56. First piercing → 5 years old
57. First best friends → err..i forgot her name ler..what what fong 1 izzit..aiya  forgot d..
58. First sport you joined → crying hahaha best sport to  make ur respiration system to function well
59. First pet → dogs
60. First vacation → to singapore
61. First concert → kindergarden graduation night..haha 1995
62. First crush → Kindergarden i guess,i was only 4 years old haha

RIGHT NOW:
63. Eating → Nothing
64. Drinking → Nothing
65. I'm about to → force myself to sleep
66. Listening to → nothing.
67. Waiting for → sunrise = =

YOUR FUTURE :
68. Want kids? → depends on my mood
69. Want to get married? → ya wanna experience it mah..
70. Careers in mind? → performer.guzheng teacher.or  petshop worker = =

WHICH IS BETTER WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX?
71. Lips or eyes → Eyes
72. Hugs or kisses → hugs
73. Shorter or taller → Taller
74. Older or Younger → Older
75. Romantic or spontaneous → Spontaneous
76. Nice stomach or nice arms → Nice arm
77. Sensitive or loud → Loud
78. Hook-up or relationship → Relationship
79. Trouble maker or hesitant→ Troublemaker

HAVE YOU EVER :
80. Kissed a stranger → Nop
81. Drank hard liquor → nop
82. Lost glasses/contacts → nop
83. Sex on first date → wah so chio meh..
84. Broken someone's heart → not sure bout it,but nvm la,everything can be cured haha
85. Had your own heart broken → err..no ler..
86. Turned someone down → yea
87. Cried when someone died → haha yea
88. Liked a friend that is a boy? → yaya

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
89. Yourself → Yes
90. Miracles →Yes
91. Love at first sight → Yes
92. Heaven → Yes
93. Santa Clause → NO
94. Kissing on the first date? → Yes
95. Angels → No
96. Soulmate → Yes 

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
97. Is there one person you want to be with right now? → Yes
98. Who is it? →DOLLY
99. Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at one time? → not yet,but shud try out someday

100. Posting this as 100 Truths? → Abo then..

tagged:

Fern,Gail,Xinrui,jiawen,Bengyew,Huqinlehe,my bro aiya lazy tag,

whoever that saw this and whoever that has extra time to do this,

please post lo..

lol,i am being so SINCERE..haha